Faith Matters

Well, it’s 2025, and I’m back on my fasting journey. I’ve found that over the past two years, my desire to fast was lost. I started a new role at work, and no matter what I did, or how I submitted to God, nothing seemed to be working in my life.

This is my second official fast of 2025, and I’m limping along. Without accountability, I know I would not hold fast to praying and scripture reading.

Funnily enough, God is still speaking to me, and I’m so happy. I’ve been asking Him why. Why still no marriage, no promotion, no kids. Just delay. In fact, He’s even taking things away that I’m not giving my all to. It feels like all pruning, no growth.

Of course, that’s not true, but I’m explaining what it feels like.

So imagine my surprise when the Lord whispered to me, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

But I’ve had faith.

Or haven’t I?

Have I really just been existing?

I believe He showed me that I need to have active faith in my waiting season.

When I asked what active faith looked like, I felt Him say, “Now you’re getting it.” Instead of me running around trying to figure out how to prove I’m actively waiting, I need to commit to just doing the next thing He told me to do and asking Him what He’d like me to do next.

My word of the year is “Steady”. No, I did not choose this. I would have chosen “Power” or “Success”. But in a very light study of the word in Scripture, it seems akin to the word “faithful”. And check it out—faithfulness is a fruit of the Spirit. Honestly, it’s fruit (alongside self-control) I haven’t been too interested in. Until now.

Yeah, I’m faithful in things like serving and giving and Bible reading. But what about being faithful in the ministry of “do the last thing I told you to do, Sunny”?

Not very.

So I can’t get mad about not having a breakthrough if I haven’t done what I perceive as the inconsequential things that will somehow take me there.

We all know that faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen (Heb. 11:1). But I never think about being faithful in little so God can give me much. The little things—exercise for a few minutes, clean up your lanai, fold your clothes—they don’t matter, right?

Right?

But I think they do.

Doing the little things add up to active faith over time. And without it, it’s impossible to please God. Because if I’m coming to God, not only do I have to believe that He is, but that He is also a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him (Heb. 11:6).

What’s the reward?

I don’t know, but it’s got to have a way better return than what I’m getting now.

So, the way I wait? Yeah. It matters.